Post by Antonio Benito on Apr 17, 2009 17:57:55 GMT -5
We fade into a shot of Antonio Benito in his hotel room. Antonio is watching The Kneeling Disciple’s promo while he is in his room, and Antonio is smiling the whole time. Antonio smiles when he hears TKD say something that he knew was directed towards him.
-The Kneeling Disciple-
“Training doesn't always mean training your body. Eating healthy and lifting weights isn't always going to be the way to defeat your opponents. Sometimes you have to train your mind. Sometimes the only way to beat anybody is to outsmart them, use what you know against them. Nobody can truely win a match against someone else unless they truely know themselves. The only way to truely understand yourself is to be strong at heart and strong at mind. You understand what I'm saying? You can't always rely on brute strength.”
Antonio leaves his computer open as “Who I am hates who I’ve Been” by Relient K comes on.
Antonio Benito: He’s right you know. Senor TKD. He’s right you can’t win a match if you don’t truly know yourself. A few days ago I got so caught up in making sure that I was physically prepared for my matches that I forgot to mentally prepare myself. All I thought was if I was stronger than I had ever been, and if I had more stamina than I’ve ever had that I would be able to win on Domingo. But none of that stamina matters if I don’t have the heart that makes the underdog be able to kick out even when he’s being destroyed by someone taller and stronger than him. None of that strength matters if I don’t have the smarts to think of how with the abilities I have I can take this man down. I tried so hard to replace my insecurities with muscles that I completely forgot what has allowed me to get to this point, and that is me. I tried to replace who I am with what I have always wished I could be. I’ve always wished I could be the strongest or the biggest even though I try to pretend I don’t care about those things, I’ve always wanted them. I know that I seem hypocritical for saying that size does not matter and then reveal that I’ve always truly wanted that added advantage of size.
Antonio walks over to the mirror, and stares at himself. He begins to touch his blue mask, and his cheek bones as if he’s not happy with his face.
Antonio Benito: These insecurities, all of us have them. They are why girls, who don’t have a father, are willing to do whatever for their boyfriend even if it isn’t right just cause they want a man in their life. They are why people who are overweight are willing to put their fingers down their throats just so that they can lose weight. They are why people spend time taking a knife, or a razorblade and cutting themselves. They are why some men work out constantly just so that no one will ever pick on them again. Insecurities cause us to be afraid of everything. The Kneeling Disciple may not be insecure anymore, but I know other people still are. Insecurities are the reason Ronald Willaims strives to push the limit just to see what he can get away with. They are the reason Daniel Fenrir has the need to tell us all he is the best. My insecurity? My insecurity is that I’m never going to be strong enough, or good enough to win matches, or just for people in general. So I work out as hard as I can so that I can win every match I’m in. I forget what truly brings me here and that is not cause I want to be famous, it is because I want to do this for the rest of my life. I have never wanted to do something more than I’ve wanted to abrocharse. I forget that because I feel I need to win, but winning is not what makes me who I am. What makes me who I am is several other things.
Antonio gets a smile on his face as he continues talking, as he appears to have gotten more confident in himself and with his insecurities after talking about them.
Antonio Benito: What makes me who I am, is me. It’s my height, it’s my weight, it’s my hair, it’s my eyes, it’s the moles I have on my arm, it’s how much heart I put into my lucha, and it’s all of the insecurities I have that make me who I am. If I don’t use all of those things then I’m not the Antonio people have known before. I’m someone else, I’m someone who only cares about winning, and trying to be better than everyone else. It’s true that Justin has changed me a little, but not near as much as I have changed myself. I let myself be consumed with hatred, and after that I just completely forgot what made me who I am. I won’t make that mistake again, I won’t become another hate filled monstruo who’s only concern is winning matches and getting someone hurt. I won’t do that again as I face off against catorce competidores in this incredibly apurado match. I know the task in front of me is very apurado, but I will try my best to win on Domingo. I will try to do this not as the Antonio I was before as that man is gone, and not as the monsturo I was before, but as a new Antonio.
Antonio looks at his mask on his face again, and begins to untie the back of it, but then he stops.
Antonio Benito: On Domingo I will become a new man. A man who is not only aware of his faults and insecurities, but a man who is one with them. A man who is not afraid of anything and he does not care what he has to do to be able to wrestle. So on Domingo I will go through hell and when I come out a new man will be born. I will be a man who knows himself as well as he possibly can, and will not try to change who he is just to win a match. Why do I need to change so badly to get a shot at just a piece of gold wrapped around someone’s waist? I do not know. But I do know that on Sunday I will have made a change in myself, and not so I can win a match, and not so I can be stronger than everyone else, or have more stamina. I will make a change in myself so that I can become the best me I can be. I will show the world what a man who truly knows himself can do, just like Senor TKD. So throw everyone at me, and I will try my hardest to knock them out. I will not be an underdog trying to get on top on Domingo. Instead I will be the new Antonio Benito, trying to show everyone how he does what he loves to do. Not for a title shot, and not to win but because I want to. Remember everyone even Antonio, the dirty Mexican, the shortest man in ICW, and the man with the most heart can be on top!
With that Antonio continues untying the back of his mask. Antonio begins to pull down the mask as you can see the top of his head, but not his full face.As the song ends the camera fades out before we can see Antonio’s full face.
-The Kneeling Disciple-
“Training doesn't always mean training your body. Eating healthy and lifting weights isn't always going to be the way to defeat your opponents. Sometimes you have to train your mind. Sometimes the only way to beat anybody is to outsmart them, use what you know against them. Nobody can truely win a match against someone else unless they truely know themselves. The only way to truely understand yourself is to be strong at heart and strong at mind. You understand what I'm saying? You can't always rely on brute strength.”
Antonio leaves his computer open as “Who I am hates who I’ve Been” by Relient K comes on.
Antonio Benito: He’s right you know. Senor TKD. He’s right you can’t win a match if you don’t truly know yourself. A few days ago I got so caught up in making sure that I was physically prepared for my matches that I forgot to mentally prepare myself. All I thought was if I was stronger than I had ever been, and if I had more stamina than I’ve ever had that I would be able to win on Domingo. But none of that stamina matters if I don’t have the heart that makes the underdog be able to kick out even when he’s being destroyed by someone taller and stronger than him. None of that strength matters if I don’t have the smarts to think of how with the abilities I have I can take this man down. I tried so hard to replace my insecurities with muscles that I completely forgot what has allowed me to get to this point, and that is me. I tried to replace who I am with what I have always wished I could be. I’ve always wished I could be the strongest or the biggest even though I try to pretend I don’t care about those things, I’ve always wanted them. I know that I seem hypocritical for saying that size does not matter and then reveal that I’ve always truly wanted that added advantage of size.
Antonio walks over to the mirror, and stares at himself. He begins to touch his blue mask, and his cheek bones as if he’s not happy with his face.
Antonio Benito: These insecurities, all of us have them. They are why girls, who don’t have a father, are willing to do whatever for their boyfriend even if it isn’t right just cause they want a man in their life. They are why people who are overweight are willing to put their fingers down their throats just so that they can lose weight. They are why people spend time taking a knife, or a razorblade and cutting themselves. They are why some men work out constantly just so that no one will ever pick on them again. Insecurities cause us to be afraid of everything. The Kneeling Disciple may not be insecure anymore, but I know other people still are. Insecurities are the reason Ronald Willaims strives to push the limit just to see what he can get away with. They are the reason Daniel Fenrir has the need to tell us all he is the best. My insecurity? My insecurity is that I’m never going to be strong enough, or good enough to win matches, or just for people in general. So I work out as hard as I can so that I can win every match I’m in. I forget what truly brings me here and that is not cause I want to be famous, it is because I want to do this for the rest of my life. I have never wanted to do something more than I’ve wanted to abrocharse. I forget that because I feel I need to win, but winning is not what makes me who I am. What makes me who I am is several other things.
Antonio gets a smile on his face as he continues talking, as he appears to have gotten more confident in himself and with his insecurities after talking about them.
Antonio Benito: What makes me who I am, is me. It’s my height, it’s my weight, it’s my hair, it’s my eyes, it’s the moles I have on my arm, it’s how much heart I put into my lucha, and it’s all of the insecurities I have that make me who I am. If I don’t use all of those things then I’m not the Antonio people have known before. I’m someone else, I’m someone who only cares about winning, and trying to be better than everyone else. It’s true that Justin has changed me a little, but not near as much as I have changed myself. I let myself be consumed with hatred, and after that I just completely forgot what made me who I am. I won’t make that mistake again, I won’t become another hate filled monstruo who’s only concern is winning matches and getting someone hurt. I won’t do that again as I face off against catorce competidores in this incredibly apurado match. I know the task in front of me is very apurado, but I will try my best to win on Domingo. I will try to do this not as the Antonio I was before as that man is gone, and not as the monsturo I was before, but as a new Antonio.
Antonio looks at his mask on his face again, and begins to untie the back of it, but then he stops.
Antonio Benito: On Domingo I will become a new man. A man who is not only aware of his faults and insecurities, but a man who is one with them. A man who is not afraid of anything and he does not care what he has to do to be able to wrestle. So on Domingo I will go through hell and when I come out a new man will be born. I will be a man who knows himself as well as he possibly can, and will not try to change who he is just to win a match. Why do I need to change so badly to get a shot at just a piece of gold wrapped around someone’s waist? I do not know. But I do know that on Sunday I will have made a change in myself, and not so I can win a match, and not so I can be stronger than everyone else, or have more stamina. I will make a change in myself so that I can become the best me I can be. I will show the world what a man who truly knows himself can do, just like Senor TKD. So throw everyone at me, and I will try my hardest to knock them out. I will not be an underdog trying to get on top on Domingo. Instead I will be the new Antonio Benito, trying to show everyone how he does what he loves to do. Not for a title shot, and not to win but because I want to. Remember everyone even Antonio, the dirty Mexican, the shortest man in ICW, and the man with the most heart can be on top!
With that Antonio continues untying the back of his mask. Antonio begins to pull down the mask as you can see the top of his head, but not his full face.As the song ends the camera fades out before we can see Antonio’s full face.
